Okay, so I said that I would not be that couple that buys ovulation test and time when we do the Baby Dance but I guess once nothing happens after a year, you have no other choice. As everyone knows I am on my first Clomid cycle of 50 mg but I have no way to know if I have ovulated or not. I am only on CD11 which with Clomid they say ovulation usually will not happen until day 17-20…..just in case I did start Ovulation Test Kit today because a normal cycle would have me ovulating at this time. This has been the longest month ever. Between waiting to start my period…then I have to wait till day 5-9 to take the Clomid. Then we start baby dancing every other day starting on day 10 and on day 11 I was told to start the ovulation test. Depending if Clomid works for me or not, if I get a positive O then I have to wait 2 more weeks before I know if I had implantation. This is just RIDICULOUS. Then the worst thing of all…if it doesnt happen this month I have to do this all over again. If PCOS doesnt make you depressed, this diffintly will. Just think, if I dont get pregnant or ovulate then I have to look at 8 sticks that all tell me that I am not baby worthy.
How many have had positive outcomes from this? Am I even capable? I know I am only 25 years old but it still hurts that I am 25 years old and I can’t just have a child of my own. My motherinlaw is visiting this week and I guess it is my fualt but she had no clue on the stuff we were going through. It is weird to tell her though because for some reason I don’t feel that everyone approves of us starting a family. I dont quite undrestadn why though because we are in our mid 20’s and we have been married 2 years now….I don’t feel that we have tried starting to early. Especially when I was told that 30 would probably be my cut off age. I dont want an only child…I want at least 2 children.
Well, it is just only Monday…everyone enjoy your Monday and feel free to drop a hello…I need it 
I know that I can’t imagine what you are going through right now, but I wanted to refer you to a blog I came across a few months ago, written by a lady who has had a few cycles of clomid and has now conceived. http://evilclomid.com/ Of course if reading about someone else who is pregnant would be too difficult, then don’t look at it, but she has written a lot about the time before she conceived and perhaps you might find comfort in the fact that she overcame the odds. I’m sorry, I’m phrasing myself really badly! Anyway, I hope for the best for you, and that this cycle will work.
By: Jennie on July 21, 2008
at 6:05 pm
Thank you so much Jennie. I went onto her blog and read her entries and it really did help. I am extremely jelous of her…lol…but it helped to know that Clomid does do its job and going through these side effects will be worth it one day.
By: numbwife on July 22, 2008
at 9:45 am