So, I have discovered that I am obsessed with everything BABY.  Whether it is about TTC, baby, PCOS, or medicine…I am researching and reading it.  I dont know what it is. I dont know if I am waiting on finding that magic potion or pill that will just make all this go away.  I just dont know.  I am on my 4 day on Clomid today and I watched The Baby Story on TLC for about 3 episodes today and cried on everyone.  It is hard.  I have so many concerns and emotions that no one can understand.  I dont even feel like talking to my husband or my mom about it because they just would not understand.  The thing that hurts the most is the weight.  My mom and husband always make a comment about the amount of wait I have put on.  They think that I can do waht most people do and work out and my weight will just shed away.  yeah, it will but jsut at a much slower pace.

 

I am just venting…I have been reading blogs all night of ladies that are getting ready to pie on a stick where I have not even got ovulation yet.  I should ovulate on the 22nd…which means I can pie on a stick the beginning of August.  Oh, this waiting stuff SUCKS!  Plus not to mention I have two pregnant, very pregnant, ladies that I work with I get to hear stories and watch them glow.  SUCKS…..please baby dust…be with me!